When I was 18 I thirsted for love, and threw myself at a string of men. But all of them, every single one, were interested only in enjoying my body. None of them even attempted to give me what I wanted, and needed. It was partly out of revenge that I took up with this part-time job in the rentboy service. I established a new way of relating to these men: they pay, I perform. It was a much cleaner, clearer, and more satisfying arrangement, and I felt poised and in control as never before. Sometimes, to my surprise, the paying client showed a more genuine kindness and tenderness than most of my previous contacts.
Sometimes I got requests to be a paid companion, rather than the usual stuff. Very respectable work, though not as lucrative. Dr George's offer was very exciting; not great pay, but with the bonus that I could get out of this city and see the world! Dr George, though they call him a hypocrite, was actually one of my kindest customers. He said he picked me for my muscles -- and indeed his cases are heavy -- but even more so because he could see that I was a really nice boy, a "gem."
Half way though our trip, I said, "Of course, I'm a rentboy." "Oh no, you're not!" he answered; "there is no such thing as a rentboy. You are you, and you can be proud of that!"
Of course he is gay, but repressed and in denial. He just adored the daily massage, which is his way of flirting with a forbidden world. Nice guy, all the same; he wants me to accompany him on more journeys in the future.
I cried at the beauty of Europe. Why have I been trapped in that city all my life? I don't believe in God, but I admit that Dr Narth was an effective preacher -- through beauty and history -- awakening in me a thirst I didn't know I had.
Now I am being besieged by emails, phone calls etc. from very excited guys, who say is it my duty to speak out against Dr Narth, that he is "our enemy". They have posted my rentboy pic all over the internet. I looked up the website of one of the most persistent of these guys, and read reams of abuse directed at Dr Narth and even more at myself. I wonder what morality those guys have; I would never post a customer's photo in a public place, or anyone else's photo, without their permission.
I listened to Joe-my-God and Michael Signorile talk about me on the internet. "He's a hooker! He's a whore!", they lasciviously chortled. I'm sure these paragons of virtue are above paying for sex, or perhaps just too stingy? They use the word "prostitute" to degrade and cheapen thousands of human beings. Rachel Maddow talked about "sex workers" -- too "politically correct" says Signorile -- and she did not use my private pic. I use the phrase "money boy" myself.
I looked up Joe's site and read reams of rubbish. It looks like they organized a lynching of the boy who wouldn't be a snitch.
"The man is a prostitute. He should be able to deal with how society in general regards his profession.
He is advertising his body. he writes he will do 'anything if you ask.' how is any of that the actions of an innocent kid not knowing what he was doing? He's a professional whore that is most likely spreading disease and stealing from every man he's been paid by.
The guy's a businessman.. and I hope the IRS takes an interest in his income. He's a for-pay escort, working in a city known for it's drugs and hot hook-ups.
You don't have to be nice to him to have him, dude. just pays your money and takes your chances. he's a prostitute. you don't even have to talk to him, pay him, he's yours.
What is important is that the kid knows all the dirty details --- the stuff that will bury this bastard Rekers and possibly the Family Research Council, too. The kid owes it to ALL gays, ALL lesbians to tell every single word and deed, every physical act, to tell us loud and clear - to shout it from the rooftops.
The kid was PAID --- plus 10 days with a horrible old skag in Europe. There is no room for soft hearted people here folks... how the hell do you think we were put down for so many centuries. Every sordid little fact has to be brought out in graphic detail to the American public audience and they have to have their righteous faces wiped in it. "
One guy had a nice statement: '
"As I get older, I'm now 53, I'd like to think that someone might want to be with me when I'm an even older man someday and that I'll be valued (though not holding my breath expecting it to come from younger gay men either). Our society overall is very ageist where older people are not valued and many people react to them having any sex as something truly disgusting. I'm not disgusting and know I'll find someone, not like Jo-Vanni, for whom I would have to pay to have sex, company, companionship with him, but someone will like being with me for being a quality older man."
Then Joe kept me on the phone for a whole hour, digging for dirt. He is a more fanatical preacher than Dr George. He wrote it up on his site:
Sometimes I got requests to be a paid companion, rather than the usual stuff. Very respectable work, though not as lucrative. Dr George's offer was very exciting; not great pay, but with the bonus that I could get out of this city and see the world! Dr George, though they call him a hypocrite, was actually one of my kindest customers. He said he picked me for my muscles -- and indeed his cases are heavy -- but even more so because he could see that I was a really nice boy, a "gem."
Half way though our trip, I said, "Of course, I'm a rentboy." "Oh no, you're not!" he answered; "there is no such thing as a rentboy. You are you, and you can be proud of that!"
Of course he is gay, but repressed and in denial. He just adored the daily massage, which is his way of flirting with a forbidden world. Nice guy, all the same; he wants me to accompany him on more journeys in the future.
I cried at the beauty of Europe. Why have I been trapped in that city all my life? I don't believe in God, but I admit that Dr Narth was an effective preacher -- through beauty and history -- awakening in me a thirst I didn't know I had.
Now I am being besieged by emails, phone calls etc. from very excited guys, who say is it my duty to speak out against Dr Narth, that he is "our enemy". They have posted my rentboy pic all over the internet. I looked up the website of one of the most persistent of these guys, and read reams of abuse directed at Dr Narth and even more at myself. I wonder what morality those guys have; I would never post a customer's photo in a public place, or anyone else's photo, without their permission.
I listened to Joe-my-God and Michael Signorile talk about me on the internet. "He's a hooker! He's a whore!", they lasciviously chortled. I'm sure these paragons of virtue are above paying for sex, or perhaps just too stingy? They use the word "prostitute" to degrade and cheapen thousands of human beings. Rachel Maddow talked about "sex workers" -- too "politically correct" says Signorile -- and she did not use my private pic. I use the phrase "money boy" myself.
I looked up Joe's site and read reams of rubbish. It looks like they organized a lynching of the boy who wouldn't be a snitch.
"The man is a prostitute. He should be able to deal with how society in general regards his profession.
He is advertising his body. he writes he will do 'anything if you ask.' how is any of that the actions of an innocent kid not knowing what he was doing? He's a professional whore that is most likely spreading disease and stealing from every man he's been paid by.
The guy's a businessman.. and I hope the IRS takes an interest in his income. He's a for-pay escort, working in a city known for it's drugs and hot hook-ups.
You don't have to be nice to him to have him, dude. just pays your money and takes your chances. he's a prostitute. you don't even have to talk to him, pay him, he's yours.
What is important is that the kid knows all the dirty details --- the stuff that will bury this bastard Rekers and possibly the Family Research Council, too. The kid owes it to ALL gays, ALL lesbians to tell every single word and deed, every physical act, to tell us loud and clear - to shout it from the rooftops.
The kid was PAID --- plus 10 days with a horrible old skag in Europe. There is no room for soft hearted people here folks... how the hell do you think we were put down for so many centuries. Every sordid little fact has to be brought out in graphic detail to the American public audience and they have to have their righteous faces wiped in it. "
One guy had a nice statement: '
"As I get older, I'm now 53, I'd like to think that someone might want to be with me when I'm an even older man someday and that I'll be valued (though not holding my breath expecting it to come from younger gay men either). Our society overall is very ageist where older people are not valued and many people react to them having any sex as something truly disgusting. I'm not disgusting and know I'll find someone, not like Jo-Vanni, for whom I would have to pay to have sex, company, companionship with him, but someone will like being with me for being a quality older man."
Then Joe kept me on the phone for a whole hour, digging for dirt. He is a more fanatical preacher than Dr George. He wrote it up on his site:
"You DO understand what an incredible monster George IS, right? The horrible things he's said in court about gay people? That he's personally responsible for ripping apart gay families?" I wanted to disabuse Jo-Vanni of what seemed to be fleeting moments of odd affection for the man who'd been such an agreeable travel companion."
What a bore! To humor him I said, "gee! George is just as bad as Anita Bryant." Sorry, George.
Sure, George, you are a horrible hypocrite. But I wonder who has the right to throw the first stone?
Joe wanted me to see -- a priest! Guess he feels bad about all that stuff he let them dump on me on his site.
Tonite, I'll be on TV!
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